do You not see me?

i marvel at You
©3-30-09 Hannah Muonio

i marvel at You
Your ways astound me
i feel Your love
encompassing and deep
high, real and transforming
powerful, perfect and true
You tend to the smallest detail of who i am--
immense strength that does not crush--
and i stagger

do You not see me?
i wonder
why do You not recoil at my stain?
how can You look in my face
and not turn Your back?
do You not see me?

i wonder

i marvel at You
Your ways astound me
i feel Your power
holding me up
firm, steady and unchanging
mighty, measured and soft
You touch me in my state of weakness
and are not taken aback--
humble majesty that inspires and melts--
and i rest

do You not see me?
i wonder
why would Your eyes ever look my way
or Your ears listen for the smallness of my voice?
when You deserve so much more
why would You want me?
do You not see me?

i wonder

i marvel at You
Your ways astound me
i desire to know You fully
even as i am fully known
i desire to see You with face unveiled
and to behold You as You are
i desire to walk in Your presence for all of eternity
unashamed
i desire to bask in the radiance of Your glory
and to be beautified in Your light
i desire to hear Your voice
to walk in Your ways
to move with Your heart
i desire You even as i marvel at You

they say of me
“if You only knew who it was that touched You...”
and i cannot disagree
i wonder
do You not see me?

i marvel at You
You see the depth of me
and the deeps from which You’ve taken me
You see the darkness of me
and the light to which You’ve brought me
You see the death in me
and have offered me Life
and even as i wonder,
as i ask
“do You not see me?”
i cling to the cross
and receive

Seek you first

Matthew 6:25–34: “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”


Seek you first
©3-30-09 Hannah Muonio

Don’t I care for the fields and the flowers?
Don’t I tend to the birds in their flight?
Don’t I bring in the changes of seasons?
Don’t I faithfully turn day and night?

I know your need
before you ask of Me

So seek you first My kingdom
Seek you first My righteousness
Knock on My door
Ask at My feet
And this and much more will be given

Don’t I hear every prayer of My people?
Don’t I promise you mercy and life?
Don’t I exalt the humble with singing?
Don’t I carry through ease and through strife?

Don’t I joyfully clothe you with glory?
Don’t I love you with fullness and fire?
Don’t I lift you from valleys to mountains?
Don’t I give you your deepest desire?

I know your need
before you ask of Me

So seek you first My kingdom
Seek you first My righteousness
Knock on My door
Ask at My feet
And this and much more will be given

With faith draw near Me
With faith receive My love

And seek you first My kingdom
Seek you first My righteousness
Knock on My door
Ask at My feet
And this and much more will be given

satisfy me

Lord, satisfy me
©3/27/09 Hannah Muonio

Lord, fill me
Lord, still me
satisfy my hungry soul
Lord, be near me
Lord, steer me
clarify the push and pull

lift my eyes
neath drooping lids
to meet Yours

cradle my head
aching from heaviness
swirling with pain

Lord, heal me
Lord, feel me
satisfy my breaking heart
Lord, speak to me
Lord, keep me
bind me lest i fall apart

Lord, lift me
Lord, shift me
satisfy my gaping lack
Lord, hold me
Lord, enfold me
pacify life’s gnawing wrack

Lord, take me
Lord, make me
what You desire me to be
Lord, shape me

Lord, clean me
for You have seen me

Lord, grow me
Lord, know me
to You i owe it all

Lord, fill me
when i am spilled out
Lord, build me

Lord, break me
from where i have been
Lord, bind me
till i’m whole again

Lord, satisfy me

Lord, will me
to rest in You

Lord, stand for me

Lord, Your hand
Lord, Your heart
Lord, Your strength
Lord, Your ways
Lord, Your love
Lord, Your grace
Lord, Your hope
Lord, Your face

Lord, satisfy me
with Yourself

Floundering thoughts

Discombobulated Considerations
©3-27-09 Hannah Muonio

My head is swirling with a thousand thoughts,
topics I would rather
just never crossed my mind;
Confusion has befriended me--
and not in a good way--
mixing the pleasures and the pains
until they’re a blended mess.

It would be easier,
I like to think,
if I just didn’t want the things I ponder...
but that just brings out another layer
to pile on the already discombobulated
jumble I have kept for consideration.

My heart and mind interact,
taking turns deceiving me.
Stupid heart.
Stupid mind.

So scattered is my concentration
I can’t seem to keep myself from floundering
arm and legs and head
spastic and stiff;
I want to push it all away
and yet, I cannot let it go;
I want to run until the horizon before and behind me is clear
and yet, my feet refuse to move;
I want to clear my mind and start over
and yet, I do not want to forget.

Things have changed.
I always thought the lack was hard,
and it still is,
but the visible and open realms that possibility
has presented bring whole new dimensions
to the confusion.

I desire to take things as they come
and only as far as I can see before me.
Rid of speculation,
expectation,
contemplation...
Freedom to consider and release
Freedom from my disarray of desires and realities.

justified by Christ

untitled two
© Hannah Muonio

Verse 1
creation groans beneath the weight of sin
wails of lament shudder through my body
as my face meets the dust

clinging filth surrounds me as the
bound are pushing, pulling at me as the
lost are laughing, sneering at me as the
blind are feeling pity for me

creation moans beneath the weight of sin
screams of pain tear through my body
as my heart shatters
surging sobs thunder in my ears

Verse 2
what, what can lift the burden
that now crushes?
who, who can bear the judgment
for my sin?
with holy justice You reign and
how, how can i stand before You?

Verse 3
Love desires for all salvation
Love says “arise and come away”
Love has moved our God to be the
price no mortal man could pay
Love declares the chosen righteous
Love maketh not afraid
Love will drive the broken sinner
to the grave where He was laid.

Lonesome song

untitled one
© Hannah Muonio

My heart is pounding out a steady beat
slow and somber as my sighs chime.
This lonesome woman’s sadness sings
a gentle melody.

Lifted in a prayer it flows
from lips in tearful, blue crescendos,
for no one sits beside this woman
to hear her song.

boldness reflects depth of need

i ask
©3/19/09 hannah muonio

i know i ask the world of You
i ask for impossible things
and i ask for them expectantly.

sometimes i tremble at my bold requests.

but i often ask
from a place of desperation
knowing of
and clinging to Your solidity
to Your charity
and to Your power.

i ask
aware of my inability
my fallibility
my instability
and my persistent and consistent need.

clinging to Your feet,
i dare to touch You.

adoringly,
i ask the world of You.
expectantly
boldly
desperately…
unapologetically.

response to exhortation

1 Chronicles 28:9 “And you, Solomon my son, know the God of your father and serve Him with a whole heart and with a willing mind, for the LORD searches all hearts and understands every plan and thought. If you seek Him, He will be found by you, but if you forsake Him, He will cast you off forever.”

desire
©3-9-09 Hannah Muonio
1 Chronicles 28:9, 29:17

Lord, i desire to know You
through and through
Father, i desire to serve You
with the whole of my heart
and the will of my mind
every plan, every thought
when i seek You, i find
Father, i desire to serve You
through and through

Lord, i desire to please You
joy for joy
Jesus, i desire to see You
all Your glory and power
mighty hand, flawless face
majesty, victory
on Your great throne of grace
Jesus, i desire to see You
joy for joy

Lord, i desire to love You
more and more
Spirit, i desire to feel You
fill the all of my all
move the heart of my heart
let Your presence be known
be my seal, set apart
Spirit, i desire to feel You
more and more

eternal purpose, let me keep
eternal pleasures, on me spill
when i do not withhold
my whole heart, mind or will

Lord, i desire to know You
Father, i desire to serve You
Lord, i desire to please You
Jesus, i desire to see You
Lord, i desire to love You
Spirit, i desire to feel You

through and through
joy for joy
more and more

sit with Me a while

Ezekiel 34:15–16a "I Myself will be the shepherd of My sheep, and I Myself will make them lie down," declares the Lord GOD. "I will seek the lost, and I will bring back the strayed, and I will bind up the injured, and I will strengthen the weak..."

you need My touch
©3-7-09 Hannah Muonio

come
sit with Me a while
I wish to comfort you
to hold you in My everlasting arms
and care for you

come
sit with Me a while
rest your head upon My promises
let your tears fall
on the broad expanse of who I am
and let Me tend to you, My lamb

come
sit with Me a while
you are fragile, and I am gentle
you are broken, but I make whole
you are shaking, but I am steady

come
sit with Me a while
I know.
I know.

I know.