do You not see me?

i marvel at You
©3-30-09 Hannah Muonio

i marvel at You
Your ways astound me
i feel Your love
encompassing and deep
high, real and transforming
powerful, perfect and true
You tend to the smallest detail of who i am--
immense strength that does not crush--
and i stagger

do You not see me?
i wonder
why do You not recoil at my stain?
how can You look in my face
and not turn Your back?
do You not see me?

i wonder

i marvel at You
Your ways astound me
i feel Your power
holding me up
firm, steady and unchanging
mighty, measured and soft
You touch me in my state of weakness
and are not taken aback--
humble majesty that inspires and melts--
and i rest

do You not see me?
i wonder
why would Your eyes ever look my way
or Your ears listen for the smallness of my voice?
when You deserve so much more
why would You want me?
do You not see me?

i wonder

i marvel at You
Your ways astound me
i desire to know You fully
even as i am fully known
i desire to see You with face unveiled
and to behold You as You are
i desire to walk in Your presence for all of eternity
unashamed
i desire to bask in the radiance of Your glory
and to be beautified in Your light
i desire to hear Your voice
to walk in Your ways
to move with Your heart
i desire You even as i marvel at You

they say of me
“if You only knew who it was that touched You...”
and i cannot disagree
i wonder
do You not see me?

i marvel at You
You see the depth of me
and the deeps from which You’ve taken me
You see the darkness of me
and the light to which You’ve brought me
You see the death in me
and have offered me Life
and even as i wonder,
as i ask
“do You not see me?”
i cling to the cross
and receive